Crossroads

I feel like I’m at a crossroads in my life at the moment.

I have been in a band since I was 15 years old; I suppose everyone has dreams to be a rock star. I am now 22 years old. Over the last 3 years the band has come on leaps and bounds. I have gained confidence in my song writing abilities and also with my voice and guitar playing. I was at a 21st recently and the family were passing around a guitar and they asked me to play some songs. I played some Pallus Sinfony stuff before I moved on to some covers. 5 years I wouldn’t have had the stones to do this. Plus I played songs that I wanted to play not what I thought people would like.

I am in my last year of college, I did an 8 week work placement during the summer in Cork University Hospital and I really enjoyed and I know I want to work in that field.

But what about my true love music?

I know I haven’t been able to apply myself 100% to isinglas and music because of college. I have worked extremely hard in college and have gotten results I am really proud of. But what happens when I finished college? Do I go get a full time job? Who knows what the band could achieve if we did it full time. (Plus a bit of luck would be handy too!)

Do I give up the music and launch into a working career? I don’t want to.

I dunno if members of the band know this but I was supposed to leave Cork this year for college to finish off my college degree course. I didn’t. I stayed for the band and I am now doing a course now that doesn’t even interest me for my honours degree. I want to do a 2 year music course next year (assuming I’m good enough to get in!)

I want to give music 100% of my time, life and soul before I give it up.

These are the crossroads in my life at the moment. Where do I go?